This is the day....Be glad!

[willbwell]

having such a hard time focusing on my hw. sometimes it is a good distraction.
I am journaling again . want to get this out of my system.

I am recognizing my resentments and fears. I do resent the fact that I am doing everything for the kids and h is just off in lala land.
I tell myself it does not matter. what matters is that I am being the best mom to my kids. those resentments though creep back in. How to be done with them??

Same thing with the fears. I recognize them. I try not to think too much about the future and focus on this day and the gifts this day brings.

I feel like I am waiting to get there.

Recognize and release, but they keep coming back. really I want them to stop coming back. does that ever happen??

can't rush it, I know.

One other thing... I miss, I want someone to do something nice for me!! Its silly. I do have so many positives... idk, something special just for me.
I do do for others. Its not that. I want to be #1 in someones eyes....I am not right now.