Yes, I believe he likes to have me dependent on him as well.
I seriously would like to consider moving my belongings as well. But, at this time... I cannot move it back to my parents home (its too small). What contradictive message is being sent??
As for the lawyer... I don't officially have one yet. So there isn't pressure to be given. I plan on talking again with him this week to see what the hold up is and point out that he is holding me back.
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Yesterday was difficult. Emotional. I was ANGRY at him. Angry because here I am yet again... MOVING & still not into a home with my "family". He was not there (thank god), he was maintaining the business while I did my minor move. I was pleasant with him. He stated he wanted to be out of my hair, but offered to help if needed. At the end of the day, I allowed him to come help load pictures into the van. After that, he wanted to sit outside and enjoy the sun. He even came back & sat down 2-3 times. I offered a beer, he did not want one.
He tried to point out a sexual opportunity to me 3x... I did not take the bait. We did laugh about it, but did not get into the convo with him. He even tried to reminisce about a fun sexual experience we had. Usually, I would have indulged in the conversation & then gone ahead with doing it. Pursuing was my job. Instead, I texted my friend who reminded me that I want "the full course not crumbs". She reminded me that I would have likely felt awful after the fact, having expectations of more (relationship). It seems as tho he is really interested in some form of sexual relationship, but who knows at what cost. I would really LOVE to be sexual with him... but I know, I would want more & he would likely give less. I can't risk that. I know he is not having sex elsewhere, he is too afraid of disease. I know that he is very lonely for human touch & is very vulnerable right now. If someone threw themself at him, he'd be torn.
What are his actions about?
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Today: MUST go back to house to finish cleaning..... UGH!!!
M:46 H:49 T:20yrs myD:22 H distant summer/12 H sleeping in b'ment: Nov/12 BD: Dec 2/12 asked me begin to move end of Jan/13 moved Jan 7/13 (left my stuff) "agreed" to "working on r" Mar 3/13(lipservice!)
