Divorced and still bitter!!

[kenva]

Been divorced now a little over a month. Tonight is my last night in the marital home. She moves back in. I am still bitter and I have asked my coach to help me on this. I still want to DB. It's hard to keep focused cause the other day I found out that my s told me the OM was at a party w them and one of her friends ,who I think was the downfall of my W. They spent the night at her friends house and s told me OM was in W room. A little too soon don't ya think. Even our co parenting therapist said not to bring anyone new around s for a while. W doesn't care. She is still in her own world. Had a real nice conversation with our neighbor and she told w that she will regret what she is doing. That if she thinks there is something better out there she got a rude awakening. Neighbor went thru the same. She left her husband and regrets it till this day. But that conversation didn't phase w. I guess I need to start calling her the mother of my s. I still have great support from my family and especially hers. Her sister still calls me once a week to see how I'm doing. Yesterday a solicitor came by to sell cookbooks. He was in ministry school. Told him I wasn't interested. But when he was to leave he asked if I had a prayer request. Wow. Was this as angel sent ? So I told him it was a little deep. He listened. I told him to pray for getting a family back together. He put his hand out I grabbed it then my s hand. He said an awesome prayer for me. I closed my eyes and listened. It was a good feeling. Well we will see. I still pray for a miracle but I know that my life can't be on hold. Bitter!!
Trying to work on it.