Thank you Bright, I have been reading and following. Good for you on the new job!

i want to journal here some thoughts.

I am feeling a little overwhelmed. So much to do. I know I just need to take action. I make my lists. i have been trying to work ahead on HW so as not to have that over my head.
I am afraid about getting a job/ working. I won't know until I try-right? have to trust.

I told the boys last night about the d. I have been looking for an opportunity to talk with them. s20 leaves next week for a study abroad. He will be gone rest of summer.

I did not tell them about h moving to another state. That will be for h to tell. although, not sure it matters. They rarely see him as it is. Their relationship has become a texting one.

I did say to the boys that I/we will be ok. They are good sweet close boys. I am fortunate.

My kids are leaving the nest and it does make me a little sad.

Have I found me yet? I don't know. i do love taking care of my family. Trying to do some good in our community. I know I need to add "take better care of me" to the list.

Feel my feelings and then let them go...


M48 H50
M21 T26
S20 at college),S17,D15-cp, dev. delay- cogniv 5yrs old
PA confirmed 7/2012
H separates 9/2012
H move home 2/13& 7/13 lasted 2weeks.ILYNILWY
OW still in picture. h filed 10/13