You are wounded by the change of events in the past 4-5 days. Hurt. Angry. Pissed off. Overwhelmed. Sad. Scared.
Perfectly understandable.
All of that comes out as trying to defend your position and trying to explain HOW you've tried to be the good husband/father to W over the years. It seems to me that you are shouting in order to be heard. We are not out to flog you here. We are here to point out some areas for improvement that will allow you to become unstuck and take back your true power.
Hell! Many of the LBS here were/are good husbands/wives...and yet they have had to pick themselves off from the pavement and barge ahead by taking charge of their OWN lives.
What is really lost in the translation here is that your anger is preventing you from truly "hearing" what others have posted you here which has been essentially boiled down to this:
YOU ARE NOT A VICTIM HERE
The power resides within you, Matt. Use it or lose it.
You DO have a choice here:
Take charge and take back your own life....
Or...
Continue wallowing in your own sorrows by re-telling the story over and over as a powerless person at the mercy of the she-Devil.
Buddy, you are not alone in having your life upended in horrendous ways by a MLCer. We all have been there at one point or another...that's why we come here, unfortunately so, to seek support and guidance.
Your W is a roaring, chugging train that is coming bearing right down at ya at full speed and yet you complain about standing squarely in its path.
