Train, thanks (at this point I don't think I want H back but who knows with all these hormones going on)

I was an emotional wreck tonight as the place I booked S7 (almost 8) birthday party called to say someone made a mistake and the entire place is booked for a corporate event that day. I now have to find a new place (that has laser tag, as that's the only thing he cares about) and call all the people who rsvp'd AND those that didn't just to be sure :-( I had to change the date from Sunday to Tuesday and I will now have the twins with me.

I was crying when H came tonight to get the twins and explained the situation. I sent a text asking for a friends phone number to call and let them know the change and he asked what I figured out. I told him and he questioned who was babysitting the twins. I replied

"I will be fine with them, I have come to realize(accept) you aren't here to help/comfort/rely on and if I need to make plans when I am responsible for the twins then it's just something I have to figure out on my own no matter what that means. It's just the way my life is now"


Me: 35 husband:39
Sons 16 and 11 from my first marriage
Twins 5 (boy/girl)
Daughter 3
Affair bomb 2/27/14
He moved in with ow 3/13/14
OW kicked him out 6/15/14
4/2016 he seeks help for sexual addiction