I agree Wonka! And good morning! After re-reading my post, it sounds angrier than I felt. Really? B/c to me, You sound extremely angry, so much so that you are almost paralyzed by the anger.
My W is acting so very odd. More than usual. She told me last night that I should stop and see her grandmother at the new asst living place she moved to. This ^^ was actually her including you in her family's lives. It was a gesture of kindness. Your anger is blurring your vision and perception of ALL the things your w says or does. Try not to let it blind you.
I'm sorry but I'm a little busy trying to find a way to live! She comes in and sits down next to me when she avoided doing that for last year and actually touched me while speaking to me. Now that I don't want to talk to her, she wants to talk to me. She wants to refinance the car but at this point she isn't allowed to by the rules in her own D petition. ^^^^ Still all about your evil crazy wife, and not about what YOU are doing to help your d's or yourself... She is being overly nice to our D when she should be telling her she is leaving.
^^ Nonsense. This is your bitterness talking (again). You are not thinking of your d now. Your wife being "overly nice" to her is the opposite of what you said she's been doing. I'd say "THANK GOD" she is being kind to her.
No matter what, it seems you want to be angry at your w, and that's something a lot of LBS h's do here. Until they realize who they are hurting most with all their anger...
I am more calm than before. I feel only dislike for her and see her for what she is, a scared child. I'm ready to just let her go.
Then do it. Detach for real. Turn it over to God and keep going. She knows how to reach you if she wakes up or gets better.
From your description, your w has had psychological scars for awhile now, and she struggled mightily with depression for a long time. I think these are the acts of a desperate, long suffering woman. If you cannot feel compassion for her, step out of the way and feel some for your d's.
The only thing keeping me from wanting her to go is the fact that I needed her income to help live until I made more money and I realized this is the biggest reason I didn't want her to go. That's not good.
If your wife had said this^^, you would say she is a selfish user. At least now you are being honest. I'm a bit surprised at how she's been able to keep down a good paying job while feeling so depressed at home. Do you now think you might have enabled a lot of this by ignoring her depression, because after all, she was earning a good income? Any reflections on that?
Anyhow, back to YOU and your d's...
will find my way now and I will get the money I need. I must for the sake of my D's!!
If you have earned 6 figures before, then paying for gas won't be a problem for you much longer. If you have to put your pride aside for a few months to pay for gas, or if you need to get a second job so your d CAN attend the school you sure seem to think is crucial to her happiness, then just do it.
Stop acting like a helpless victim. Stop all the focus on your w and the content blame game and historical revisions (how every choice you made was because of your w and you were a perfect h, etc. It's not helping you and in fact it keeps you from looking within yourself, where the real journey is).
Start by becoming the father your d's need.
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