Cross country DB with WAS

[Anders]

I saw 'Fireproof' for the second time last night.

The first time was four years ago. Our R issues were just beginning to bubble strong enough that we went to MC. MC recommended this along with the 'Love Dare' book.

I don't remember what I thought of it the first time. I do remember W saying it was okay as a movie. Things were not yet that bad in hindsight.

Last night, I was watching a replay of our M when I the movie again.

And I broke down. It was realizing how there were so many points where it was so much easier to get back on track compared to where we are now. And how unaware we were.

But there was also a profound sense of gratitude in my realizing this.

In the past year, I had done a relatively good job of keeping a PMA no matter what. But I was still focused on resolving my own pain. Not that I was unaware of WAW's pain but the focus was mainly on my pain. To me, her front came across as strength and indifference. I was taking on the role of the victim.

Watching the movie reminded me again that it is not all about me.