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[JJAC2005]

I had not really intentionally thought about going dark....

The last conversation we had was a good 4 plus hour afternoon lunch where we both enjoyed the company and conversation.
It was very easy to be together, with lots of the same old flirts, jokes, playful antics, and some slight sexual undertones......at that time it was made pretty clear exactly how I felft, what I had learned, about myself, our marriage (marriage relationships in general) and how I came to a place of great change.
I also cited a couple of books, and articles that help lead me to this place of great learning....to which it seemed she took a bit of interest in...especially the link I texted her later that night about the couple that put out a Christian based book called "I Do Again" [by Jeff and Cheryl Scruggs].
All of that days efforts seemed to be for not...she made it clear that she had moved on deepening her relationship with her BF, and asked that I no longer made any attempts to contact or ask to have contact with the kids (no cards, letters, gifts, for B-days, Holidays, or special occasions).
I told her that I had to respecter her requests...and did so for about 4 months later, when I dropped off a little gift basket of treats for the kids on Valentines Day.
I also sent her several texts and emails about needing a couple of financial documents for my bank loan on a house purchase. I had taken off for the weekend and when I returned we spoke a bit on the phone about my requested documents, the house (she had to ask), and on top of that her displeasure with me going up north to visit an old GF in the U.P. after dropping off the gifts....the only way she would have known that I was up north that weekend would have been to look at my postings on Face Book (some things I put out as public some as private) and since we are not friends she can only see so much.
Later that week I tried to request another face to face, she refused, and as I pushed a bit harder, especially after her silent treatment, she blocked me from text/talk and email....soon after that her BF moved in. That was the end of February beginning of March.
Now, here it is the end of May....and I see that she unblocked me from Face Book, which isn't something that happens unless you consciously take off the block.

I know...I started to fall into the dangers of "mind reading" right away....thinking that something might be going on with her relationship after 3 months of reality (grass ain't always greener)

So, back to the "going dark" thing....as an attempt to limit myself and my own curiosity for snooping around, I placed my own Face Book profile on deactivated and told myself that for the rest of the summer, I would be on hiatus from wasting any time on FB.....besides, anyone that really wants to get in touch with me, knows how to do so...including my ex.
So, I guess my answer in a long, round about explanation would be, YES, I am now going as dark as I can, w/o even realizing it...lol

Any more thoughts on this process in helping to understand it better, are as always, greatly appreciated