Forgiven lazy husband - reconcilliation possible?

[rayzzz]

More detaching this early early morning. Sleep? What's that?
Finally took my WAW photo off my iPhone lock screen.
Realized I don't need a picture to keeping reminding me of my strong feelings for her and the hurt that's there because of this breakdown.
Now I just have to stop snooping on her Facebook page.
Guess the ultimate 180 would be showing her I really am moving on by unfriending her.

Thoughts?

She did take her married status off a while ago.
Gotta shake my head
and start thinking about my "north stars " my kids and serving their interests above my own. ..getting out of this swirl of sadness.
This really is the best thing that's ever happened to me. I know that sounds so contradictory but I just hear my heart/spirit just say that so loud at times and I am grateful for this "gift" of insight. I get to work on stuff I have been running from for years: being immature, selfish , not being a consistent hard worker letting my wife take care of me and not caring about myself really.
The honest truth is I wouldn't want either of my girls to marry anyone like the old me. And I am their first model of how a man should treat them. With God's help I will be the full man I was designed to be. And also to lay down a strong road and example to my S on how to live well and with character.
So yeah it's going to be a bit easier to ramp up my GALing a bit more and be a lot more exhuberhant because there is still a lot to live for and if she catches wind of me.....she can follow me at a distance for this next while.