come get some- i've got a ton and they're all going crazy at the moment.
i know, i would love to hone in on something i love and do it til my head fall off. been immersed in a giant collage last few days- began couple years ago but got "stuck" about gown- had idea other morning and have been working like mad. time just slips away- 7 hrs later, still gluing away. i must be world's slowest glue-er- but still ike it. workin in yard too- it's beginning to look better. lots of hard manual labor- feel less enthisiastic about THAT.
YOU'RE RIte- i do need to get DOING someting. i keep thinkinf stil i'm having a "rest" with no huge respoinsibility or obligations. i'm sure i'm not "entitled" - but since i can- i just find myself thinking i am.
one of these days, weeks, years i'm sure i'll be whammed over the head with "reality" - whateverthell that is or is going to be-
still just feel like i'm having some giant "aftermath" thing going on.
life sure is strange- ya gotta wonder about it all. workin hard on not having resentment or anger or anything toward sisters (ha ! rite)???) - anyway- still trying.
i have quite a bit of patience in life.
h is being very nice & generous. makes me wonder why bother? i honestly cannot imagine what the heck he has going on in his head. or heart . i can't figure if it would be better if we lived together allll the time- it would have either kept us together or broken us apart alot quicker i think than this arrangement. it's pretty "old" - isn't it?
oh well- one more evening rite? i can always leave tomorrow, blah blah blah
i'm tired of hearing myself talk here or even think- try to avoid it usually - tra la. maybe i need a glass of wine tonite- if i had some pineapple juice i could make a pina colada ! remember my youth in Ft.Lauderdale when we'd go have a drink at local bar with a tiki hut roof! and were about 24 yrs old- seems like a million years ago. w/ ex husband. i sure can pick em!
call if ya get a notion for flowers- i'll dig ya up a bunch of "no fail" nj flowers that always are wonderful and never fail. (well, ya have to work pretty hard to kill them).
