Thanks 25. Just got out of meeting but no resolution as of yet. This will take some time. I really thought I would have more time but not anymore. Thanks for the post. Yes, that trip was the start of 3 years of total he&L. 3 years of being so depressed she was unable most days to get out of the chair she decided was the place she felt best. I never could understand why she stopped cooking meals, doing things as a family, she said it was because she was isolated when she was depressed and went a little 'crazy" when she had new friends. I had worked so hard to get her through those years and I just didn't want to believe it was all so she could just abandon not just me but her kids as well. She has always favored our oldest D who just turned 18. One time about 2 years ago, she told a story to both of them one night when we were all together. My D who was 12 at the time asked her if she had a favorite, her or her sister. My wife looked at her and said (I kid you not) "I loved (sisters name)from the moment she was born. It was a love so strong I had never felt anything like it before or since. When you were born, it was different. I was tired and I really didn't even like you. You were crying all the time and I just was so tired." Even my oldest looked at her slack jawed and said "Mom! How could you say that!". My W stammered and added "But you grew on me and now I love you very much" but the damage was done. My youngest was so hurt by that and my W just blew it off! This was a year before B-day and I now know that she was in MLC but at the time I just couldn't believe it. I still think that she is doing this now because our oldest D is out of school and she just isn't as worried about or cares as much about youngest D. Our oldest was always more like her mom and my youngest was daddies girl but this is just what I think and mind reading on my part. Not a good thing to do.
I know that my W sounds so awful when you look at these things and yes, there are many of them. But there were times that she was loving as well. Times when she was my best friend. It's just that those times became less and less as she became more and more selfish and 'unhappy". Looking back on these things I wish I had seen them for what they were; an indication of what was to come if big changes weren't made. Too bad I didn't know about MLC or DB then!
As for job, I have been looking and emailed a couple places. Sales jobs are hard because most are very vague and don't go into detail about where or how much. Many are just commission or muti-level things and you need to weed those out. Going to go out GAL tonight I hope. I had planned on it but that was before money became so hard to come by!
