I quickly work through it and find my center again. But why is this happening? I feel like I am almost sabotaging any small progress. H has not apologized for anything. Neither to me or the kids. He has not acknowledged the pain or hurt. I don't expect it, however I wonder if I can authentically try and build something with him, without it.
Would it and does it matter if he does? If i have moved on from the past. If his actions prove feelings that he does not know how to express...does it matter?
Although you say "I don't expect it,"
I wonder if you do. Why are you angry?
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Without provocation from him. I feel more and more resentment about the past that I thought I had dealt with and let go of. I feel like I have moved forward, I feel so strong and rid of the past. Yet more and more, I find myself having flashes of memories of things he said in the last, the lies, the OW, the hurt. And I get angry.
I can tell you that he is not at that point yet.
Maybe someday in the future but not now.
Sorry I have been MIA but been pretty busy myself. You are making progress Busting I can see it.
If you look hard then you can too.
Keep moving forward and know that you are going to be fine.
