choosing door #2 - next part in my journey

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Hey Tl - haven't been around for a while I know, but I have been very busy with work and rental property issues, etc... Just wanted you to know that I have gotten caught up with you in your posts - I can't believe how well you are doing!!! More power to you. I wish I had your ability to get through this in the same fashion. I have had, and continue to have,a difficult time cutting that last bit of tendon that keeps me bound to him. Just spent a wonderful 3 days in the Sierra's hiking with two good girlfriends, only to cry all the way home after dropping off one of my friends. Especially when I pass the part of town in which he lives which is 5 minutes, at best, from my house. Talked with him about a week ago - told me he is living with this gal who is married to a Merchant Marine or something, very secure in her marriage, blah, blah , blah . . .I don't buy it. Says it's great financially. He's also off to Spain for a month on the 20th. Gosh, why do I still love this idiot? Gotta tell you that the "Rebuilding When Your Relationship Ends," book has been GREAT, but obviously I have a long way to go. Also got another HELPFUL book titled "The Journey from Abandonment to Healing" by Susan Anderson. Both of course address much of the same issues but in different ways. Highly recommend both even though I, again, have and obviously long way to go.
Haven't started a new thread yet, so TL, I am hijacking your spot. Sorry, my friend. But I wanted to let you know what I have been going through too and to get those book titles out to others since you have gained such an audience. I agree, you should become a moderator some day!!! You're truly an inspiration to all of us laggers. Sounds like you got through the anniversary quite well. I'm so proud of your. Yeah, the 'firsts' are a bit_h. But you are one tough cookie! Love ya, my friend. Keep posting - we all benefit so much! ((())))