CSan00 - My story

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Well as I am waiting on my 1st XH to decide how soon my 17 D can go over to Japan with him and his wife as my daughter snuck out of her room tonight after telling me she was going to take a nap. I stupidly believed her and let her take a nap. I just want this to be done with as I don't know how much more I can take from her. I had decided that it was best to send her away as she had gotten in my face a couple weeks ago and I saw how defiant she is. My family doesn't support me and to be honest that is fine. I don't want anyone's approval even my STBXH. I am doing what I believe is right for myself and all of my kids because my D has put the entire family through a lot the past 3 years and I can't allow this to continue. I'm venting since I would usually vent to my STBXH but that would not be right and I need to manage on my own. I love how people you love can find so many faults in all your choices. Yet there is truth in some of them, it should be more helpful than hurtful. I have always felt like I am not good enough and always doing things wrong. I'm ready to let that belief go and be a better person for myself and my kids. I am glad to have this place. I'm looking forward for things to get better and I know that it could be worse......Praying for strength and hope