Ok one and all ran out of room on old thread and needing to start new one.

W came home late a surly. Wanted to know why I didn't sign paperwork (told her I'm seeing lawyer tomorrow), and acted like a real bitch. I really don't know why but I feel very tense around her now, like I'm waiting for the next piece of bad news. I also didn't talk to my D yet as after everything that was said on last thread made me think I have to rethink what I'm going to say. I have no plans to bad mouth her mother. She needs to know she filed for a D! This isn't going to change any time soon in fact I have zero idea that she won't go through with it now. Of course she will. This marriage is over and this family is no longer going to be a regular family, ever.

My W is going to do this. She won't stop until she is done and at this point I doubt we will EVER be one of the 15%! There will never be a reconciliation. I am certain of that now. I have no qualms saying she will never be able to come back no matter what now. She has gone back on everything she has ever said in the last 2 weeks. She is not going to allow me to stop her from putting my D in whatever school SHE see's fit and doesn't like me having a lawyer because she was hoping I would just fold due to money. I need to realize she is not the same person she was just a couple weeks ago. Her dad's being sick has pushed her past any other concern including what is best for our D. She has made a decision and that is what she will now do because she's like that. She is now on a mission and nothing will change her mind. She gets this way about many things. I will no longer be anything close to a husband. I won't be a roommate nor a friend. I will not help her in any way. I am done trusting her as she is doing exactly what her dad is telling her and he is a devious bastard who cheated her mother and got what he wanted. Never cared it hurt the kids as well. He got to keep every Penney and never paid CS. She will do the same if I let her. I won't be letting her!

By the way 25, the reason her doing this the expensive way instead of mediation means I will need the money my dad was giving me for D's school for a lawyer instead. My dad isn't nearly as wealthy as her father. Can't afford both. My job search is still in search stage. I'm trying to get some sales at start up but now I'm spending all my time looking for lawyers and such.