own buz 30: My self-value, dropping the rope.

[makingmagic]

Hi T^2.... are things any better for you now?

I am really disappointed that they wait until its too late.. really insulting!

A couple more attempts today... to which I did not indulge... (talking about agent lady, he said I looked pretty, asked me to sit beside him).

I really really want to learn more how to let go... and not just for the sake of trying to win him back. I really see how this is no longer healthy for me. I also see that if I do not be consistent now, I risk falling back even further to where he will no longer respect me. I cannot afford that!!!

I too am pulling back emotionally, and see your point T2 about moving on vs. moving forward.... I'm really feeling at the end of my rope too.

I guess 2 more things are still in the way of me completely dropping the rope... 1) finance completion 2) moving my stuff out of his house.

I need to finish/start ^^^^ on those. 1) spoke with lawyer, apparently even though we "agree" & mediated" with our new agreement, I still require an independent lawyer (stupid). So, I asked him today to speak with his lawyer to get our agreement written up so that he can present his offer to me/my lawyer....STUPID !!
2) UGH.. this is awkward. I do not want to have him pack my stuff to take where? (moms? storage unit??). I do not want to go there (uncomfy/sad) and pack it up myself.. especially if I do not have a place to take it..... Is doing this all that important right now? Can I still be dropping the rope without doing #2??

only a few days left in this BIG rental house... closing date is June 5th... (sad)

Starsky...LOL... thats crazy confusing!!