afraid I have waited too long #3

[nit84]

Riley,

Thanks for pep talk. I already have done all those things you talk about above.

Since I don't have time for the gym right now I work out in the yard carrying things around instead off using a dolly or wheel barrow. I walk my housing plan every night to get some cardio and do some self reflection etc.

Sandi's rules are my savior, I use them daily but backslide occasionally, not that much anymore.

About the books. I feel 5LL is a good book to read for her as well as me. It doesn't layout any strategies like DR but allows one to think about past situations where using the primary love language would have been good if you know what it is.

I have not given it her yet so I will hold off, I just wanted to run it past the board.

I have detached as much as possible. I still care and love my W deeply but she has made her choice.

I fight the urge help her out with things, not money, but like when I know she is upset and it is not about me but instead our current sitch or something else.

I want to ask if there is anything I can do to make her feel better but I don't want to risk that friend zone problem. I keep reminding myself it is all or nothing at this point.

I prayer daily and actually some of them have come true recently so I am keeping my faith strong.

I GAL and 180 a lot but it frustrates the W because its too late why not just stop doing things.

I have to keep reminding her these things are for me not her and that makes her even more mad. Sorry, that is not my concern.