New therapist and moving on......

[twinmom]

I think trying to go dark right now has made me more resentful/angry/bitter toward H as I deal with this pregnancy alone.

Instead of it allowing me to get of the roller coaster it makes me angry when I am having contractions, can't physically move due to pressure on my spine and i am trying to keep the twins from using my body as a jungle gym. It's impossible to be "upbeat", let go of any anger and really hard not to curse H out.