VERY HONESTLY.... a bit of both... at this time (early)... Although I can admit that I do want him to see whats in front of him. I think he is a fool!!! BUT, knowing that I must do this for me.... most importantly for me..for my sanity & health. For my self-value.
No.... I will not pick the rope back up. What is the point? I made my stance 5 days ago. He needs to realize it was a gift/offering... one last chance. I need to realize that If he doesn't accept, then I accept that. I will not look like a fool who is chasing/begging him to come back. THAT is unattractive. I must have some self-respect for myself & will hold out for myself. I deserve more!
Yes, I am looking back to see if he is looking...still focusing on him (very difficult to think otherwise)...<< please HELP!!
This is not a game to me... I'm very serious. I cannot afford to do this to myself anymore. I know I deserve better and MUST hold out for it!!
M:46 H:49 T:20yrs myD:22 H distant summer/12 H sleeping in b'ment: Nov/12 BD: Dec 2/12 asked me begin to move end of Jan/13 moved Jan 7/13 (left my stuff) "agreed" to "working on r" Mar 3/13(lipservice!)
