Thanks for the update. Sorry things turned out this way. I really believe you are going to be fine, although it doesn't keep you from experiencing deep sadness.
Your boys have a great dad! I am glad they are living with you in their home.
I wish the best for you, Andy. Take care of yourself.
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!