Forgiven lazy husband - reconcilliation possible?

[rayzzz]

emotionally rough morning.
So besides learning how to detach you have to learn one other real skill:

ignoring your own fabricated arguments.

I was caught in this swirl, absolutely because of stress of telling her parents in two days. Its just going to wreck everything..for us...kids...i know i know it will just be different.kept having to turn off my thoughts where I wanted to accuse her of wrecking everything, that its better for kids to have a parent die than go through divorce...why are you giving up on us WAW when only you win and everyone else loses.....plead plead, whine, accuse.
Ok enough of that foolishness. Gonna keep at my LRT and get some housecleaning done, look after my sick D8 and play with S3 D5. Research some new GAL activities like gardening. my wife always complained I never shared this passion of hers so I am now gonna see what all the fuss is about (know its theraputic). I am planning on growing her some flowers and giving them to her when the R gets better...and thats gonna take a long time. oh and its sunday so a couple more prayers get to hit the sky over this whole SITCH. Any other suggestions to help me break these annoying fabricated arguments?