hope456 - accepting my new reality

[JennD]

Hi Hope...It sounds like you had a good weekend! Hope it was fun!

I too wonder how I can compete (insert comment about how I should be competing) for H attention when his single fun bachelor life is sooo much more fun than taking out the garbage, disiplinging the kids, cutting the grass, emptying the dishwasher...

But I answer my own "wonders" - I keep guessing what his single, bachelor life is - drinking, going out, poker games, foot loose and fancy free.

But H has corrected me several times in our conversations - its not all that - sure there is some of that - but if I think about it - his reality is:
- alone - the quite - no kids - that he used to being around.
- a dirty, dingy apartment of his friends
- even making a meal would be an effort - no food in house
- none of the comforts of our home
- living out of a suitcase, moving every other night almost (here and friends)

In a cruel way, this gives me comfort.

It would certainly make me miserable. I'm sure its true for our H's.

Low-pressure positive contact. Perfect term.

{{hugs}}