I'm thinking I should go back and read my earlier thoughts/posts more careful - I imagine if I do I WILL see a difference! Even imagining a life where I can be happy without my H is a fairly significant change from six months ago, where I was certain there was no way I'd be able to go on without him.
I think rereading your threads is a great idea. I can see where you are making changes, but maybe you are too close to see it. You're doing great
