Well, just an update and to let you know I have been getting out and doing some fun stuff. I usually can't do things for long amounts of time but Thursday was an all day out for me and I did pretty good.
But today I'm feeling very good. I had a hard day yesterday and last night a friend called and we were chatting on the phone for quite a while. When I got off the phone I see where h had texted me - wanting to know if I was awake (this was very late) and if I could talk. I texted him back (it was quite a bit later) and said yeah what's up. Here comes the crazy part - he wants to know what I am doing so I text that I was on the phone, why. He then texts back wanting to know who I was talking to. LOL REALLY? I said a friend we were just chatting and then he wants to know if it was a guy. REALLY? Then he calls. Now I've been nc for about a month and I really didn't want to answer but I did and the first words out of his mouth are if I was talking to my boyfriend. I calmly reminded him I had no interest in that and then he said I didn't mean boyfriend, I just meant was it a guy. I said no. Crazy. But then he asked about the kids, said our d15 doe sn't talk much to him when he calls. I just said I'm sorry about that. I didn't try to play ms. fix it. (I'm learning). He talked about his job, said he wasn't happy (he did sound very down)and then he just chatted about misc stuff. I was so happy. I was able to handle it and not let it bother me and not react to him. I am learning and I thought I wasn't. I am so happy with the little bit of progress I have made in myself. I was getting so down because I didn't think I was making any forward progress for me. I guess what I'm learning is starting to stick. I felt bad for him that he sounded so sad, but I made no comment on it. It's for him to deal with.
