I had an affair... and I want my Fiancee back

[DBinSF]

Honor her request for how long? You say "use the time away" as if there will be a time to return. When is that? I'm so desperate and confused right now. I know I seem pathetic, but I can think of nothing else.

I'm having mild anxiety attacks over it. The guilt and shame are overpowering. I'm scrambling to make the pain stop in some way...