I must be nuts to still have hope

[RedHawk98]

Apologies, I didn't intend to be vague, just trying to cut a long story short.

I honestly did not want to burden my wife with anymore negativity. Stress will make you thin the wrong things most of the time.I have explained this to her.
Communication was really dumb pride from myself. I couldn't tell her the grief I was going through with my grandfather's condition. The man was my childhood hero.
I also couldn't tell her the financial stress I was under as my job was so poorly paid it was difficult to recover from one 'rough month'.

The only issues she expressed to me were
*To find a better job
*To pull myself out of the red financially (only by a month's wages)
*To make more of an effort in my appearance (which had slipped I admit. Baggy jeans and hoodies had become more of a practical thing with the job I was doing.
* To restore the natural confidence in myself that I had when we met.

The physical changes in myself were made in weeks.
Unfortunately, changing my job took longer than I wanted due to my previous job's "no references" policy.
That cost me many promising positions.

We have been together 7 years, married for 5, separated for a year.

My wife was, despite whatever our situation was, fiercely proud of both of us. Until 2 months into her new boss starting work at her place.