On a bright spot, the dog will survive. It turned out to be some kind of inner ear, neurological thing that happens in older dogs and is not dangerous. Lasts a couple of weeks and then they are better. So he's on meds and home and sleeping now.

On the bad side, I was not sure before if there was ow. I believe so now as no motel bills anymore and he is taking large chunks of cash out of the bank. So he must have moved in with ow and instead of paying support to his family he is financing their fun times. I'm devastated yet again.

I feel like I'm going through this all over again. And then to top it off son says he has invited his dad to be at his surgery and his wedding, of which he had previously told me he wasn't inviting him. His dad never calls him, but I can son couldn't deal with that and calls his dad every couple of weeks. Said he doesn't think his dad will be at surgery because h told son to let him know if everything goes well. REALLY? But I know right now emotionally I can't be around h. I don't know how I'm going to hanIle these two major events in my son's life. Son says I need to suck it up, but he doesn't understand I've not had enough time to be able to deal with this yet. That's why I am nc with his dad. So if I don't go son will hate me and if I do go I will be physically ill and an emotional wreck.

I don't know what to do. I feel like I'm drowning right now.