I had an affair... and I want my Fiancee back

[DBinSF]

Hi,

I was on here years ago with a different issue about a different relationship, so no need to research my history.

The story is until recently I was in a relationship for two years with an AMAZING woman. She is smart, confident, beautiful and loving. The only problem was our sexual chemistry wasn't great. I didn't know how to talk to her about it, and I ended up in an affair to get those needs met. I felt awful about it and cut it off with OW. OW was so upset, she sent a letter to my fiancee outlining all the details of our affair just to ruin my life.

Fiancee has said she never wants to see me again, and changed the locks on her (our) apartment. This was two weeks ago. I've made a number of calls and emails, some have been replied to -- almost always angrily, but some have been mildly compassionate. None have been loving.

What's my next move? I want to go over there and beg for her to take me back. I know that's not recommended, but I really don't know what else to do.