Forgiven lazy husband - reconcilliation possible?

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Thanks Sandi2, no more spologizing.

Today's big pre-talk:disclosing to inLaws and kids next week

I am quite proud of myself. 4C just about killed me today. I had a paper and pen in hand to be extra attentive and we made some great scripts to share for "Dis"(closure) days. Will tell inLaws first and then a week later kids.
The big stabbing wound today was when she said "Ok ..I just want to make sure the kids don't ever think we are going to get back together again". I just bit my lip quietly and made sure I didnt scream out, wail, cry and beg. I just nodded quietly and wonder of wonders, I went 180 and did not freak but stayed strong!
I am believing none of it...
Through the whole hour I just kept deep breathing and projected confidence and with just a blip or two...caught myself wanting to give her the 4th degree about how divorce would wreck our kids blah blah...
The only other awesome highlight is when we decided to answer our children:
"...well sometimes mommys and daddys have problems that are too hard to fix so when we live in different houses we will be able to work on these hard problems"
She may not have meant it but it is said so hopefully her heart will go there as well so we can both change.
so now I know God was with me and I am going to meditate and pray some peace, DETACH and look forward to taking my 8yr old to her first symphony tonight.