I know what you mean bright - but didja see ur's reply that even deciding not to do anything - is a decision of a sort? i liked that- made me feel like perhaps , just perhaps , i decided something for the time being. perhaps you too.

i have to say tho- that if i'm honest - the whole dbing thing is nothing more (i think sometimes) than us deciding to just wait and see - and so, stuck or whatever you want to call it- we're doing what the heck mwd says we should.

gal- wait and see - have patience - don't run away- don't kick him out- remain open to all possibilities, etc.

i'm losing patience and faith and hope and sometimes - the notion that i have any shame at all. and that i am truly some kind of door mat (and promoting it). but on the other hand- here i am- doing what i oughta - rite?

it's a contradictory kind of thing. i'm tired of hearing myself talk and think about it. i shove it to back of mind and go about my life - then i wonder if i'm selling myself and my life short. but thenm i think- when something wonderful plops down in your face - and you have to decide whether to go forward with someone new or sit and wait- THAT is gonna be the point when we man up or not. ya know what i mean. it comes back to the fact that I have nothing better to be doing - honestly

i keep+thinking of my girlfriend who was sooo nuts over her husband's on line sexting - she was seeing a psychiatrist who told her- in all honestly- she'd been divorced three times - and that she should "think long and hard before leaving her familiar guy and home if she had nothing in particular going on to run to".

it does make sense - i am a plodder - i don't do things fast or like change toom uch - sooooooooo

wtf???? glad i'm in good company. we are, after all- doing it rite? so, we're still alive and cookin despite the fact of being somewhat "stuck". oh well-

xxoo good luck - one of these days i'm hoping for total clarity (and wisdom) too- patience and then more patience-

xxoo you're doing good if ya ask me. (if we're not crazy or dead - i say it's goin good). do i ask for much????