Hang in there. I went through 1st D when my boys were the same age as yours. It's comforting to me to know that other DBing S feel peace when the other S is away from the home. After 21 years I got married again and he left me in January. I feel this peaceful way and it confirms that going dark is good for me. When children are involved I feel for you and others. Good for you to feel peace. Keep it going.
