It started last night when I got home from my work, my W was at the house as she had put the kids to bed, as she does on the nights I work late. She then asked me if I had plans for tonight. Because she wanted to make plans herself. I'm so tired, and haven't seen my kids much this week at night, so I said I hadn't. It's a very busy weekend, and when we spoke about it earlier in the week, I had mentioned it wasn't likely either of us could make any plans, and it wasn't spoken about again until last night.
I assume she is trying to meet up with the OM. It makes me mad, but I realize I can't do anything about it. I actually want to spend the time with my kids. So I told her she could do whatever she wanted and felt was appropriate. Big mistake, my tone and the way I spoke betrayed my disgust and I was probably trying to make her feel a little guilty. 2 X 4 me now, it's a horrible way to operate.
We also need to make some decisions on some kids activities in the fall, and I want to see her thoughts on registration. She commented that the kids may not be able to do what they were doing before, and I commented that I want them to feel as few ramifications from what is going on as possible. Again a mistake. The use of ramifications as a word really upset her. She said I was trying to make her feel guilty again.
I'm left to wonder, am I trying to make her feel guilty or does she already feel guilty? I assume the latter, but I didn't feel good about the interaction as a whole. I am now fighting the urge to get into a discussion about the OM. Arghh, is the weekend here yet?
