I must be nuts to still have hope

[RedHawk98]

To cut a very long story short, my wife left me in April 2013 to pursue a relationship with her boss at the time.
This happened as a result of a tough time at home. My dying grandfather, my somewhat tight knit family, and myself buckling under financial stress and dwindling confidence.

All along, she has denied this to the hilt. Will only admit to this and turn nasty when presented with evidence. That I have had to go and find.

My wife finds it very easy to lie through her teeth in text and on the phone.
In person, she can barely look me in the eye.

I filed for divorce last month. I just couldn't take waiting for her to do it any longer. Taking a deep breath before I opened my front door when I came home from work, wsiting for that A4 envelope was killing me. Filing gave me some control

While we did have some minor troubles in our marriage, things were blown totally out of proportion by her to justify her leaving. And her continued refusal to come home or at least take steps that might lead to a reconcilliation.

Her last words to me were "I know you think it's easy to come back feom all this, but it's not".
Just as vague as all the Affair Fog babble that us BS hear.

I still love my wife, but few marriages in her family have survived. In mine, everyone has fought to keep them in times of trouble.

I have addressed every change both my wife and I wanted in myself. I feel happier and stronger than I did a year ago.
Sadly, my wife's strong sense of character and morals have gone the opposite way. She spends time with people who have done nothing but encourage her actions. People who were always very jealous of the happiness our marriage once had.

I am at Stage 2 of the divorce proceedings now. I just can't go through with it.