Marching forward with deal breakers in hand

[mdu]

So I ended up calling H last night and talking to him about the sitch with my Dad, I cried a lot. H was kind but honestly, I think it might have been a mistake to call him (even though he kept txting and checking in). I can't quite put my finger on it but he wasn't quite as warm and compassionate as I might have hoped. It may have been a neutral move, hopefully it wasn't a negative.

Having a hard time today in general. Will have to deal with H a lot this weekend. Tonight we have S's b-day party at the house. Tomorrow the kids each have t-ball/baseball games. I'm trying to get myself into a positive mindset but it's proving challenging. I'm going for a walk at lunch with a friend so hopefully that will help. I'll read some positive threads here, I often find inspiration in the 'wise DBers' threads. Additionally, S got invited to a neighbors house for a giant nerf gun battle. Unfortunately he won't be able to go because he's going with H. He will be SO disappointed, it just sux.