choosing door #2 - next part in my journey

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Thanks you guys - love reading all your responses!
Matt it is a shame that they don't see it but like you said - I KNOW I tried my best and now I have really looked inside and have been doing the work on me. The grass is greener where you water it!!! I would have stayed married to him until death, but that's not what he wants so f*ck it. I finally feel 100% detached. My ex texted me last night asking if I had applied for a home loan because he received a phone call. I responded an hour later saying no i have not and that was the end of that touch and go. I completely try to take myself out of the victim triangle, I accept responsibility for my part in this failed marriage, and I accept that there were so many good times (they far outweighed the bad in my eyes) He can go on this journey and now I'm on my own and I LIKE IT. Definitely a lot of personal growth going on and it feels super. Like i'm back in control of myself. Not letting his moods or actions dictate my moods or feelings. Only I can control my feelings. I definitely feel like I'm dumping baggage along the path. I know I can't get rid of it all but I can slim it down. Not going to settle anymore, not going to replay the last R either - I had one of those "aha" moments and could clearly see I did the same things in 2 marriages myself and I had never realized that before. Things are clearer now that I know to look inside myself. Still much work to be done!! Just feels good to know you're on a path of purpose. I'm about ready to shut the door to be honest. Maybe just leaving a crack in the window