This is the day....Be glad!

[willbwell]

This is what we do. have a discussion about d. see the L ,then no movement. H wants the d but he wants me to do the work....
I was almost tempted to text this morning and say lets talk Sunday about the d. lets get this done.
is it what I want? I still don't know. I am almost having to remind myself what a jerk h has been.
What I am working on is trying to let go of these feeling of resentment. the stinking thinking still pops up two years later.
I guess I am still waiting for that moment to happen when I I think yes, this is what I need to do!
For now, we've been status quo.

I know what h brought to my life. I have 3 great kids. For 20+ years I have lived a comfortable easy life. I have gotten to live in some great cities due to h's job changes.
I don't want bitterness. I don't want ugly/
I want to get beyond having this longing for h when I see him.
h will forever be in my life because of D16.
I know I will be ok. I know there is a purpose and and plan for me.I know I can't rush it.