"I dont get this woman.. I feel like cock slapping her because shes messing with my head so much"
First of all, she is not "messing" with your head. She has been up front with you and told you she was confused. She's trying different things to see what she ultimately feels. If you can't handle that, then all your claims of "changing" were total BS.
Ive ordered it but it arrives 5th june and is this a good thing or bad thing?