Tomorrow is a big day. First job interview in over 20 years and also going to lawyer to file for divorce. Idiot retained a divorce attorney - so I am going to file. h does not know of the interview or the lawyer. He does know that I am losing my job though. I am nervous for the interview and nervous and panicky for the lawyer. I know that I have to do both, but in the same day? UGH! I want my boring life back.
H has become quite the a$$. He is a horrible liar, my youngest even points it out now. He really is showing poor judgment, even poorer than before. Took kid to Law office with him - NOT SMART! Duh! If your kid is sick cancel appointments.
So I wonder why he has the sudden rush to get divorced? H says work is fine, and he is safe. I don't believe that. IS OW wanting him divorced? Does not matter they would break work policy unless one of them moved spots.
I really wish that sometimes I could live in la la land like H. It seems (but I know it is an act) that he is always happy. One of our friends who has become more of my friend said I will come out on top, bc I am way more stable. They cannot even stand to be around H anymore. They say he is bragging about himself nonstop, talks awful about me, calls me dumb bc I think he is having an affair with OW, is trying to be everything to hide the pain, and is a a$$hole with a bad temper.
I am going to go NC when the divorce is final. He is going to be pissed when he gets served. For the most part I have others here 24/7, as I don't trust the idiot. I just hope I have the strength to get through the lawyer, and I am taking someone with me for extra ears.
Thanks for everything everyone. I need to start looking for a forum of divorced people.
