Forgiven lazy husband - reconcilliation possible?

[rayzzz]

Update time!

So I was feeling very wretched this morning, missing my wife and thinking of all the ways i could apologize to her and show her my remorse so she would have me back as her husband. I was replaying the tapes as my heart was slowly punctured again and again, but then I wrote in small pen on my palm "Detach, believe none of what you hear and half of what you see, no expectations"
Took that to heart added some God thoughts and prayer and pulled out of it. Realized again there is no more need to apologize...I have said sorry for a few months pre-DB. The only thing to do is just love the new changed repentant me and hope that she can too. Deep breaths