If it were not for being on the board, you would probably be in such a state of shock at this point (after OM#2) that you would not be able to function well enough to protect yourself financially.
She's headed for a bad place. Don't know when, but it's coming.
I know you are suffering, but you sound stronger. You are going to make it.
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!