own buz 30: My self-value, dropping the rope.

[makingmagic]

Tx Sandi... I will think about what you are saying to try to understand before I start with my questions. I totally agree that he is always able to outwait me before I caved again. (See below)

G'belle & GM... I have friends that play sexual convo too. But, with Xbf its different, its with intention and showing his desires. Regardless, I shut it down.

GM ... can you expand on what you mean about getting my business stuff settled? how u think it would change things?? We made an agreement so, not sure what would be different if finalized? I WILL make moves regardless of R or not... to me its a done deal... Its at a lawyers office... although I do need to get back on top of this...(TOMORROW!!)

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Today on my way to work, I decided that I would text Xbf to see if he wanted coffee. His reply:

can't (minute later)
working with X (minute later)
pic of vehicle

I reply: ok

I am sitting here at work, figured out how to use my phone as a hotspot for internet (yay).

To me.. it appears as though he is game playing back to me as a mirror of yesterday. Punishment?? He does not NEED to be there working with X. The guy does not need him to hold his hand. This is stupid. We NEED to be here, selling inventory!!!

I need to be consistent.... and I think I did that last night & will keep doing it!