My sister and I are going to sit down this weekend to draft my response to his petition. She's already frustrated with me because I don't like some standard language (like agreeing that the marriage is insupportable), but she's finding alternate ways to word it. I recognize that it isn't a big deal in the grand scheme of things, but it is important to me that I don't sign something that says I agree with what he's saying when I absolutely do not.
I feel like I've started grieving all over again. I hate this. This is not the life that I want for myself.
Oh, and H still isn't "closing the door on us" as he doesn't know what the future holds. I don't know how people go through the pain of a D and then still reconcile. I don't know how I could ever believe that next time the vows would mean more to him than this time. It seems insurmountable to me.
And, I'm not even sure how to hope for R now. What does that even look like? I just don't see him changing his mind.
