Roller coaster and then some

[daring]

I'm glad the scripture helped some of you as well.

2BHappy- forgiving yourself is definitely key. I failed in the areas that scripture mentioned as well and I have worked on me to make that a non-issue should my M survive. No matter what I have become a better person even though this has been incredibly painful.

So I went to IC today and vented some of my anger about the sitch. I'm over the anger for the relationship but not when it comes to seeing the effects in my kids. My IC have me some good ways to "honor" my anger without taking it out on H or letting it affect me in an unhealthy manner.

So the strangest and sweetest thing that happened today was this text from H:
"It may not matter to you but I thought i should say it anyway. You have been amazing. The way you have focused on the positive, the way you have made yourself healthy in all aspects of your life, the ways you've supported me and the kids, the work you put into being emotionally and physical healthy, the changes you've made in your body... I am so in awe of you and the woman you are. You really are amazing. "

I'm continuing to let go and let him bake through his MLC- but it was definitely nice to know he recognizes my changes. Maybe they will help lead him forward.