Thanks Bashy and Why, I appreciate your responses. I don't respond to many posts because I don't know that I have anything to say that would be useful to anyone! smile But know I do like getting responses if only to know I'm not alone in my thoughts.

I feel like I should be posting more about what I am doing to GAL and 180's and such but find myself just writing my thoughts and interactions mostly.

I still feel I have a big road ahead of me to make changes that I want to make. Especially when I look around my house. My IC continues to tell me that I need to focus on the accomplishments and positives and continue to work on things I haven't accomplished yet. We could all probably be nicer to ourselves.

I have been thinking about what I posted here about my interactions with H and am trying to keep myself grounded, I find myself getting too hopeful and worry that I'm setting myself up for more hurt. Have the interactions been more positive, yes. But it could mean many different things or nothing at all.

I think it's time to set up a lunch date with a friend and get back to GAL!


Me-44 (45)
H- 50 (51)
M-'96

S-18(20)D-15(17)D-12(14)

BD Feb 2014 (he works overseas)
home Oct(sep rooms)
(EAs possible Pa's unconfirmed)
insists wants D through July 2015
no more talk of D since