Marching forward with deal breakers in hand

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My stepdaughter is staying with me again tonight. The kids are back home and are so happy they got to see her. I'm so glad she feels comfortable enough to stay here with me without her Dad here. It's so nice to see her and have the extra company.

H and I had another interesting exchange. The fact that we are separated is making it's way around the neighborhood. Apparently folks are spreading that he's "moved out." I called H to find out if he was telling people this because in my mind "moved out" is different than "separated" and I'd like to know directly from him if something has changed. He said no, nothing has changed and he has not told anyone anything. Then we talked about how it didn't really matter what other people think and we can always disengage from the hood if we need to. Which was like a reconciliation conversation but not..

I'm sure it's actually all my fault everyone is talking. I have told a few people about the sitch and I guess they couldn't keep their mouths shut. I know this may adversely impact reconciliation but I have to say, I really feel like I needed the support for my survival in the early days/weeks, so I don't think I could/would change what I did.