ok... let me try. I am trying very hard to understand here...
YES... I need to make my own decision based on "ME" without considering his input.... I seem to do that ALOT.
Starsky... to answer, honestly:
If you WANT to go, for just business/"fun" (and not "relationship with xBF") reasons.
I WANT to go, to be with him...honestly. There is really no "business" in this evening. The last time we were there for no more than an hour. We don't even walk around together./color]
and IF you can keep your expectations in check . . .
[color:#3333FF]I can manage myself around him, but might question things and look for MORE after. There will not be "more" to look for.
and IF your going can come across to xBF NOT as pursuit of him, but just as you wanting to go to this because you've always enjoyed it, and you need/want the business networking . . .
Yes.. I can do this. But has nothing to do with our business. Just food as far as I can tell. As Job suggests, its an opportunity to show that I can have fun... I can do THAT!
. . . then you should go, in my opinion.
What happened to your "don't accept mere cookies" concept??? THIS is not a REAL date... its an excuse to be together under the disguise of "work".... don't I deserve better?
Job.. Yeah...desperate. Guess Im not having a good day today. I miss him/us terribly and want it back!! I do sound needy and its ugly. STOPPING!! I do not want to be "Needy".
He will likely be going 95%, unless there is reason to delay due to his business offer on that property with that agent.
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He is informing me pretty much of each interaction with her about this deal. I guess its nice that he is keeping me in the loop.
M:46 H:49 T:20yrs myD:22 H distant summer/12 H sleeping in b'ment: Nov/12 BD: Dec 2/12 asked me begin to move end of Jan/13 moved Jan 7/13 (left my stuff) "agreed" to "working on r" Mar 3/13(lipservice!)
