Need to write here so I do not begin with too much clingy contacts. I have had the removals people here. all in German. All looking at this home we built and planning what to take and what has to be thrown away.
I can not really understand how I am left to this alone. How he does not think of the fact that we have to move. That I have a new job on the other side of the country and that I have to do this without any input.His one comment months ago was that he owned some of the things in the house. But nothing else. he was tired last night when we talked but generally reasonable and not as irritated sounding. He was invited to come to the graduation of a young friend but decided not to. He said he will not allow anyone to nail him down. Which means no commitment for anything for anyone. he said he will come the week after.. maybe. And I am so sad about this.. and if he is not depressed he does a very wonderful impression. The same old negative issues came up. I don't know what to do with them anymore.. i just validate and wish he would stop talking about it. so I am really alone and sad today.. The week has been good but reality struck and that this could be my forever reality.. well that is not a very positive outlook.
