Have I any hope...?

[bashy]

I'm really struggling today. My WAWs interactions with me recently are making me really miss her more than ever. Especially after last nights message and the texts between subsequent. I know she's warming to me but is it a test? It's hard to not try and think what she's thinking and I know that's wrong.
I went out to play golf today for the first time in 10 years. Cleared my mind a little but god this is hard. So want to ring her and tell her I want her back. That our old marriage is over but we can start a new one. I won't Ofcourse because I know that's wrong but this is soooo hard.