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Thanks for stopping by ces67.

Both are incredibly tough spots to be in.

Guess I was feeling a little down yesterday and struggling with W still seeming to be in the same spot – not happy with where things are at, but not unhappy enough or in enough pain to leave. Ideally I would like for her to figure out a way to engage w/the family and M and also be at peace with who she is an individual.

Unfortunately so far she doesn’t seem to have figured out a way to find that balance. I don’t feel that the two have to be mutually exclusive - and I am doing much better at realizing that there is nothing I can say or do to solve that for her.

I think I am getting to a place where I really want her to be happy – regardless of what the means for the M. I just don’t want the boys and I to have to experience the pain associated with her physically leaving if that’s what she chooses to do.

And I don’t think in the long run that leaving will fix everything and create a sudden sense of happiness for her – my sense is that the issues to be worked thru are much deeper than that.

Btw, at the same time that I am feeling that I want to scream loudly to her something like “either get on board or get gone” I also feel guilty for even feeling that way. Very confusing???

So instead of doing that I usually come her to post instead…….